seriously man, This desktop sucks... awhile ago, I was typing/blogging about how
I've realized so many things and mesmerizing about the good times which I was about to post.
then suddenly my screen froze, and next time i know, it shut down by itself..!!
at that moment i was staring and wishing on how I can fix it so that I can destroy it!!!

Now, I lost my motivation about typing it, I want my LT back, those maintenance people are still fixing it for like one month already, how slow =_____= they should do their jobs regardless of your standard as a citizen People now a days are so sarcastic. =___=

Anyway, Im so happy today, imagining all the things that I can do!
yap.yap.!!~ heheheh..My classmates are preparing for their quarterly while I am rejoicing because I finished it last week... Good luck for them though, coz major subjects are so difficult, wish them so many luck and wise use of their brains.*smirked*

~~So, I received some news that I'll be going to Philippines next week.Not March 2.
My departure will be this March 7 at late afternoon :)
This is so unexpected coz my mom was hoping it will be tomorrow, but the embassy said there's some problems that needs to be solved..eee..it's very complicated, can't tell yah.

And I finished watching HANAKIMI JAPAN . it was so funny, & so so so like the 2 guys, Sano and Nakatsu and the dorm head no.2 ..oh~ I know i know, I'm just so slow,
but to be honest it was just an accident, yesterday at the middle of the night, I was so restless because I could'nt sleep and so decided to watch FATED TO LOVE YOU in mysouju?
anyway, when I clicked the title my computer hanged and I'd realized I clicked the wrong serie, it turned out it was HANAKIMI JAPAN which I momentarily liked.
I SO LOVE IT!!! Nakatsu!~he is really funny

anyway.
I could almost Imagine what my friends would look like :))

< <----my friends preparing for the exam.

<----- while ME

Okay, just so u know. I randomly picked my blog titles from my random mind.
heheh..anyway.

Raichelles gave me gold choc. coins today :)
and a frame with our picx inside it :) so cute man.. *sniff* sniff*
thankkkyou Raichelles!! ^________^

& earlier this afternoon, Imee gave me A PAAANDA!!
yap..! :) I was so happy that I nearly chocked someone beside me which was laskshmi..hhehehe..lol.
& she also gave me a friendship bracelet :) which I am wearing today..
thaankyou Ahmmee..!

Oh~ and Im sorry if I dont have any pictures here, coz I dont want to hassle myself about
the complexity of upload & copy paste. :))

but anyway..thnkyoou lots to all my friends..


byebye.

So much to do so much to do!!!!!
seriously dhud. Im so so toast T____T
tomorrow is the deadline, & Im going crazy @_____@

okay.I have to remember this. Projects/act. to do:
-ENGLISh term paper (i already made it-but sum1 deleted my file from my USB)
-PHYSICS house
-FILIPINo complete test papers
-Compter questionnaire
-math notebook to be passed
-Computer project
-physics complete test papers
-Mapeh videos & music

This is so insane .. I swear not to play hide & seek tomorrow..
lol...We played hide & seek during lunch time, instead of doing my assignment..
Im so fickled sarcastic creature =_____=

okay. I gotta go.
& someone gave me a PAnda drawing today. its so cutee!~
Wish the camera was with me :))

I hate this day..
I went to JARIR bookstore today to claim my laptop,
& waited for like half an hour in their maintenance room,
and all i got was "Im sorry, but you have to wait nextweek"

UGhh waaaah1!!!!!!!! seriously man, Im just so pissed off..
They've been telling me that for 3 weeks already!!!!

first, they told me that they have to fix it.
then the next thing, they told me that the hard disk was still in Germany for
some process tsutsu ( which I didn't believe)


And now, I have to wait for one week more!?!?!?
they are so liars, its better if they'd told me that it will be ready
next year, then that would be okay for me..I mean..not entirely. but whatever.
You just can't trust maintenance people nowadays.. =___=

bye.

1) I will get upset when someone is being mean to me, and eventually cry.

2) I can't ride a bike.

3) I CAN FEEL when someone is acting/being fake to me or not.

4) I will have an anxiety attack if someone is breathing too close to me.

5) I prefer to be alone when I am not in the mood.

6) I sleep at daytime because I have this disease (that is what I called it) of having nightmares
when I sleep at night.

7) I cannot lie big issues to someone, I get nervous & thought of different kinds of Karma.

8) For the longest time, I thought pineapples grew on trees.

9) I am socially awkward, but love attention.

10) I am completely responsible for the death of one baby rabbit.

11) I have the most fickle mind, you will ever encounter.

12) I have this tendency of talking/confessing about EVERYTHING when I drink too much Coke/drinks.

13) I think I am one heart sided.

14) I only have one crush since 4th grade and I still like him. :))

15) I hate messy places..and sometimes I end up cleaning things =___=

I didn't go to school today.coz we don't have classes.
& for the whole week they are all gonna probably practice their dance for this coming Friday.
& I as my usual self, i didn't join. :)

Well. Im starting to read some notes again coz next week will be my last Quarterly exam.
& weirdly Im not really stressed out :)

For the whole day, I actually spent most of the time thinking about my future.
then made some aromatic coffee & went to study for 1 hour 5 minutes and 22 seconds,
and took a break for 4 hours. :)

& finally finish my term paper about Akashic.. =__=
& Im really motivated ayt now.
So, I have to go to school tomorrow. :D

Honestly speaking, I know sometimes I am weird in many ways.
Such as randomly just of nowhere weird...
Well,..All I could say is... ..
well you know, I have nothing to comment about.

Ahmm...So on V-day...
Not that it's special or anything. I mean not in my particular reason :)
My sis gave my parents a V-day Flowers, & I told my sis to include my name in her V-card...
ehehehe :))

So, anyway. I kinda feel like talking/blogging here ..ahem..here it goes...

Not long ago, hmm..it's like 4 years ago.
I had or have this really huge crush to someone, I mean really~ if I can only see him
for a day, I could swear I can die happy :)) lol...
It started when we got the same computer in class, and I'm so very stubborn back then.
& I remembered when we got the same assigned computer, & we were like fighting and all,
the next thing I knew our faces are so close at each other, waaah!.. ( 0^^0)
I still remembered it...whooo~ & then his very very charming in his own ways,
We're not that close though, but we did talk~

Lol..I remembered when I forgot my DLA book & the rule was NO BOOK NO ENTRY,
so as usual, I cried =___= then he suddenly handed me his book...& for some reason,
I couldn't talk coz u ner, Im like frozen & couldn't look at him straight in the face =__=
so, I ran away..lol.. then afterwards I gave his book --not personally though, I put it in his desk.
^^''

& I remembered about the Foundation dance, & my partner was absent & told me not to say anything about his cutting classes, & because I am his neighbor I totally understand :)
So, anyway. he became my partner instead,(D) & I am like in cloud nine kilig moment. 0^^0
& hesistantly holding his hand, & Im like sweating badly, my head is sweating, my hands & even my foot, then he asked me why I was sweating when the air is not that hot..
& Im like "ahhmm..so?" *rolling my eyes*

uggh..I totally blurted it out, I didn't really mean it- then suddenly there lots I mean lots of leaves fell from the hills, coz we are kmters below from it -so, it's really like falling from the sky Its so wonderful-& weirdly picked some of it, & gave it to him.
then he said w/ a very cute way -"anu ako basura? =__=''
& then I paused and laughed, then he laughed & my other classmates laughed..
& we all started throwing leaves at each other-it was one of those moments ^^
haiiz..wanted to bring that moment again ^_______^

anyway, Then we graduated in gradeschool. there's lots of crying goin on, & especially me,
coz my friends & I will be going to be separated & of course D.. but I never got the chance to see him, & I went home early because my parents wanted me to. 0.0

That night I prayed that If I will ever see him again, I promised that Im going to tell him
how I felt about him ^^''
then one week before my departure to K.S.A. my friends called me that her friends friend's mother died, & have to go to funeral.

then, after the funeral, I went to our Librarian's house (we're close :) ]
& saw DJM there. & i totally feel like screaming the word OOOMMMMGGG!!
lol.guess what-- he & Miss librarian are neighbors...
& I whispered to myself :this is DESTINY. hahah :)) then I remembered my prayer bout telling him how I feel.
But unfortunately, I didn't. I swear I couldn't even look at him , how the heck Im going to tell him how I stupidly feel..haha.just so~ mission impossible.
& I went home.

Since then, I never saw him again. I asked my friends if he's still attending school there,
but they said he moved -just the same as I. & my friends doesn't know his where-abouts. T__T

I really wish to see him again~ his the only person I really liked in my whole life..lol.
& for some reason I kept dreaming about him.. sometimes :)
isn't that weird.

I really wish I could meet him again..
his really very mysterious, & his eyes...it's so calming, anime like eyes.
& he smell gooood :) & he knows how to play guitar, he talks politely, play sports,
tall, not friendly :)) & he is just him in many many reasons why I want to loveee him.
yeaa..keep dreaming me. but to be honest I dont really care, as long as I like him,
then it doesnt matter, & if probably I knew who his crush back then, maybe just maybe I woudn't like him this much.

bLaaah~ I should stop this already. BUHHBYE!
& I will personally haunt down everyone this coming friday.
sleepover is in the list. I really have to go before MArch strikes.

i was reading some sort of little blurb on the internet today, and it said
"you should always leave loved ones with loving words;
it may be the last time you see them.

I miss my friends...& my dog.

Today, I feel really indifferent. I just don’t care about anything.
The only thing that I actually care about is the fact that I don’t care about anything.
I mean I hate not feeling. I just kind of feel numb all the time.
It’s almost like life is just a waste of time.

But on the other hand it’s sometimes worth living.
I don’t know what I feel or how to feel it.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want my life to be over or anything like that,
I just don’t really understand why I am here.
I would like to think that everyone have a purpose in life,
I just can’t figure out what mine is.

I mean, I’m smart, but not that smart,
so I’ll never be the person who discovers anything important for the world.
I’m creative, but not that creative, so I’ll never inspire greatness in other people.
I’m athletic, but not that athletic, so I’ll never set a world record.
Im just nothing above, low or between...
So what do I have to offer the world? What do I have to offer myself?
I just can’t figure that out. The not knowing makes me really nervous.

How am I supposed to pick a career and find something I want to do for the rest of my life when I can’t even figure my life out?
All these questions, no answers; it’s no wonder I’m so stressed out all the time.
I can’t even find the answer to simplest questions.
The only thing that makes sense right now is that fact that
I understand that nothing in my life makes sense.
Today I feel really indifferent. I just don’t care.

yea.& so before I rant all about it, gotta say Bye..

WHoa!!! can't seem to be so hysterical these days, no more time & so much to do. T___T
I've never even watch anime or read manga these days..seriously. I never missed one until now.

I so want to watch SHUGO CHARA & vampireknight!! someone told me that the new episode has been out 2 weeks ago!! huhu..
But~ I can't .. Coz If I'll start watching it, I'll probably ended up watching & waiting for the next one. *rollllling*

And oh yeaa, GUNZ too~ I stared at my monitor for like 5 minutes earlier, hesistantly thinking if I'll click the GUNZ icon or not, but gladly I didn't.LOl

Man, Sure time flies fast, especially in Saudhi Arabia.. It is just so weird. =___=


& I never thought I can beat the thought that it's okay for me to fail in
rather annoying subjects...I mean it did shocked me.
I received my Physics score and I stared at it for a second,
& i was like "aw?..wth?!? oh well..." & mindlessly put it in my bag.


This is my last year in highshool & I became so careless, & lazy. It's just that
there's so many distractions..Oh men, I need to get back in track. *sigh*

k. Im working on my projects. BYE~!

It's already 3 in the morning..
I couldn't sleep because of too many things to do. &
I kept thinking about my friend, moving to Philippines which is way too far away.
she didn't even have the chance to join the PROM.
It was really unexpected, just like that~ & everything changes.

I'm gonna miss her.I will miss you Diane.

Im currently doing my school projects as well as soundtripping & blogging.
Most of my songs are too emotional, but it did suit for this kind of day.
It's good to hear music early in the morning, it is just too peaceful and calm & quite as well.
It's so relaxing. & I was thinking about making some snacks, but the kitchen is kinda scary,
I can't go, coz the hallway lights are off...scary scary.

Anyway, Im listening to this song entitled COLLIDE-- ayt now.

^_____^ I so love morning.

KK..goota go.
byebye.

LOOK... i went to this house of GUIGUI [steph's pet], & caught my attention
coz they were sitting in the table, w/out me monitoring :D
it was so sweet... So, I pictured it :D

though my pet was kinda wearing pajamas =____=
but oh well... :D

.. hahaha..LOOK LOOK STEPH!! ^______^




Visiting guigui... Panda went to her 5th floor

& saw a secret elegant restaurant~
so he asked Guigui if it's okay to eat there--
since his really very hungry & the meal looks good.
But Guigui wasn't happy at all,
coz that was her secret & now it has been revealed,
so she decided to poison PAnda.
Unfortunately, she got confused
& mixed the wrong glass w/ her glass--
so she got poisoned instead & died..LOL..jokeee!

Actually..what happend was~ when they were finished eating,

Panda realized that Guigui is so cute,

so, they took a picture.Little did he know,

that he was wearing his pajamas- & was so embarrassed..

(not reaally..)

Then they went to her toys room & played.
Guigui wanted to play Jello but Panda declined
coz he reasoned that it is not a Panda's doings to do such girly things,
but Guigui knew the best way to let Panda play,
she gave him a JUKEBOX which PANDA always likes.
.So, her plan did work & they played all day long,



& they went to her restaurant again~ & eat...
Panda eat all Guigui's food ~
so, Guigui got angry & decided to poisoned Panda ....again...
But this time~... She carefully analyzed all her plans,
& when she gave the glass of wine,
PAnda suddenly said:

"Im sorry, that I ate all your food...
It's just that I brought you a chocolate
& you won't probably want it if you'll full...
this is the only thing I can give though,
Happy Valentines Day!..
Your such a good neighbor & friend ." PAnda smiled.


Guigui was shocked & realized poisoning is bad. So she hugged PAnda.



then they ate again...And this time..No more Poison plans..hahaha!~





*lol..gumawa na ng kwento eh..waaa!! magaaral pa ko..! BYUHYEE!*

*Sigh* I've heard bout my friend's sudden plan of moving~.
*sigh* & I don't know if I could write or type about it~
I have to lighten myself first, for about a day or so... This is so sudden & shocky--
like I can't even verbalize what I really mean or feel.
It's like I have these jumbled feelings that I can't even categorize into normal understanding.


To be honest, Im not in the mood to think about anything right now. I just wanted to wish~ that it could have been a little longer, i just don't want to let go...not yet..
I know sooner or later, we will all be separated from our little rooms~ but not this SOON, I just couldn't accommodate the feeling of missing someone ~ from far away especially when that person is my friend & became really close to me..

Can I ?

So, this is goodbye then.

THIS IS MY PET NAMED PANDA




HE LOVES TO PLAY PIANO xD


THIS IS WHERE HE LIVES ^____^















(above) her name is Honeypanda, the cutest girl in town.
which I believe my pet PANDA likes..

OMGGGG!! I didn't sleep today...O.O

maybe later...hehehe...
Anyway, Im like so happy today coz my friend STEPH gave me lots, I mean Lots and lots of things
in this game called PET society, I dont know what happend back then, first, we were talking about the things we like for our pet, the next thing I know I mentioned about Piano--then Taaaddaaa...
she gave it to me...then one lead to another and so on..I was like "dhud..." still shocked...

Lol,..I went hysterical to this kind of things o___0
Oh well, I want to indulge this --before my interest expired..
But seriously..THANKYOU so MUCh Steph!!!---- and DIANE as well...

Anyway, it's VALENTINES AGAIN... hmmp...just want to say to all people out there Happy Valentines day, and hope u all get your chocolates from your love ones.
Yeah..I kinda craves for chocolates too, think im gonna buy some

whoaa, i feel so sleepy ayt now..=___=

oh I forgot to mention, THANK YOU To RAY Xin as well for her Turkey doll and Piggy :)
and to Andrea as well for her piggy that I accidentally sold for regrettable price. and to Flappy for trading the mirror :D and to Huther for her trading as well.

oh~ tomorrow will be our class time again. and I have to deal w/ my MAstery results :D
which Im so nervous about :) <---- see how nervous I am.. :))

and ilang weeks nalang maggraduate nakong mag-isa ...lol.. have to finish all the tasks this week, projects, assignments and term paper as SOON AS POSSIBLE.
& studying for my Quarterly...ee..so stressful =___=
GAnbare! I can do this!!

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WHOOoYOOO!!!

I love this day!! ^____^
WE took our 2nd day MAstery subjects, and all of them are majors btw.
And I realized that the teachers made the exam easier =)
Ain't that surprising...haha~
But, I have this hunch that tomorrow will be a brain-sucking day since it will be our MATH subject,
hated subject for your info ! >_<*
Anyway, probably this next 2 weeks will be my Quarterly exam since
I'll be going home earlier than I thought,
so I have to present some efforts of getting all my papers and all that...
haiiz... It's kinda sad though, not being there in our GRADUATION DAY.. T__T
But I'd really want to spend time w/ my friends before FEBRUARY ends.

AJA!~ gotta study now~ eventhough I'm blankly unmotivated =___=
I wonder where I'd put my stupid math notebook =__=
kk! gotta studdy studdy now! :)
:)