ugh!! Here I am more pathetic than ever --.''
I was going to do my computer project about making a webpage and all that,
and by the way, I was so excited because I already came up with an idea, and
Boong! my computer book was not in my bag!!!! I felt like crying T_T
I mysteriously left it in school... now what should I do??!?!
the only thing I know about making a webpage is to put an html code first and blah~~~
bakayaro!! that was the most important-difficult project and here I am sharing my sorrow solitude to the world... I know I always have my usual unlucky day, but this is the worst!!!!
I couldnt figure out what to do next. but Im gonna finish this no matter what!!

hai hai!! Well, internet might be the good source for this...wahahaha//okai now, im weird..
okai okai I gotta go! see yah







CONTINUATION:
you..i wrote this about 6 hours ago..just so out o my boredom.
im gonna post this...ugh,im so random today ^^''



I’ve got emo voice that says Die pathetic old hag die!!!
>.< ugh! I was really frustrated about this anime that I am watching for almost 2 weeks now,
I lost my motivation, and interest in the show,
when that stupid hag fart old woman want to kill the one that cares for her,
then the twins’ stepmother is a Sl_t!,
then here goes the protagonist who want to kill himself because he thinks he’ll die without his friends, then heres the psycho sped uncle who killed his brother for stupid inheritance or something,
then the lesbian thingy who was rejected by shuri was more weirder, pathetic and crap. Ugh!...
so much drama and overdosed twists, the only thing i like there is aio-chan,
but still it made me realize I need to stop watching it or I will go crazy,
at first it was fun, funny and calming, but episode after episode it turned into psycho sped dark
and not calming at all- anime. Blahblah, and i hate that old woman, she really scares me >.> .

Changing track I just woke up today, due to my annoying ape younger brother who woke me up by his very very incredible voice that sounded like this “WAAAaaakKKKE Uppppp!!!”’
and I really want to bash his head into the wall (kidding),
though I was half asleep and he keeps mentioning about the internet and so on,
I don’t really got it, and said “shuddup already or else I’ll swear to you’ll never see the sun again
(hehe, just wanted to say that here..but that was not i said) ...
anyway, after several seconds,or minutes, My younger bro. Came back again
and said there will be no internet for like FOREVER—
even if we clean all over house. And I was like “yaaah riiiight. Whatever, now let me sleep.”
Then I realized what just happend...”NOo, whuat’!?!?!?”
my sped bro told me because I didnt wash the plates and I was mumbling like “am the only one who got to work here? Ugh! Unbearable, so I dash off back to my bed,then I thought about that anime and become more frustrated, so here I am typing this non sense senseless issue, so as the story goes,
I ended up washing the plates, its my home assignment anyway, so I don’t really mind much,
okay, thats all, ugh!...I have to make my project too...okay, see you next time :)



P.S.

u can see I post this using the internet—(hahaha..nywez)
my mom gave the dsl to us..I used my strengthen ability of kawaii attack...
and begging for half an hour :)
i love my mom :) yosh yosh...
oh that reminds me, her birthday will be this Sunday
(..wers my pocket money ==.)

A while ago, i was randomly searching for my old mag’s. And found all of them in 1 box, accidentally one of my mag. Fell, so I picked it up—and suddenly, caught up by the story, I went upstairs and start reading it. before that I honestly admit that I was so teary and almost cried..u know coz I was moved by her story, and a while ago, I was listening to an instrumental violin music w/c by the way have a sad melody and forgot to turn it off—so the song and this is a really good mixed... I also realized that...i am lucky and blessed somehow.

anyhow...this is what I read..



DEAR YT,

A letter to Marissa, last week, had us depressed. Our hearts went out to help to the brother and sister who have been left alone in this huge, wide world.
For those who missed it last week, here is the letter.

Dear Marissa,

I am 14 yrs. old girl. My parents died on the spot in an accident. Since then, I am living in hell. I am really tired of living. Life is miserable. I have a 10-year-old brother. He is miserable too. I just don’t know what to do. I tried to be strong, for my brother, I didn’t want him to believe that life is unfair. I always try to cheer him up, I smiled and always tell him that everything will be alright...I sometimes cry when I said that “everything will be okay.” Even if it’s not, but we have to believe right? I know my dad had some accounts in the bank. But it will not be long, I don’t know any of our relatives, I only knew my grandparents but they died too. Help me Marissa, please. I don’t know how we will survive. I really miss my parents, and If I have given a wish, I’d wish that they are still here, and I promised to obey them and to be a good girl. I wonder why it happened to us.

-Desperate for help -

= Well, Marissa replied to it, and we hope it has been a solace to the brother and sister. We know there are many other ways by which we could be of help to them, and we would like to extend all help possible. Moreover, we received calls from parents of readers who would like to help out too. Yes, nobody in this world can replace one’s parents. But, at the same time, any sort of help-emotional, as well as financial would mean a lot.

= Now, here comes the part that has made us helpless. This letter came by e-mail, and since our counselling inbox is always full, the letter got deleted as soon as it was dealt with. And we are left with no contact of the two youngsters. Now, this is a call to desperate of help, or to anybody who knows her. Do get in touch with us at ___________(categorized..Hehe)

= Losing one’s parents, especially at such young age, is the worst thing that can happen to anybody. Suddenly, you are left alone in the world. All of a sudden, the secure cocoon bursts and you are out there in an open, not knowing how to go about life. Yes, life ceases to be carefree anymore, it suddenly becomes loaded with responsibilities of life that this brother and sister have to face. They have to come to terms with the fact that they will never again see their parents.

= We are at a loss for words. But, of course, no words can comfort them. And life has to go on. At this moment, we hope to the brother and find strength in each other, and stand up for each other. Lets hope that will help them go on with life

Take care,

Rof-ian



[it’s really sad. I wish they will be okay]

ahem.., i woke up,took a bath, tootbrush, reading something, eat, then go to school.


IN SCHOOL:


i was so scared like hell when i just saw something really weird.then I told my friend about it which by the way, she was there too. it happend in the cr, when I was putting some johnsonpowder at my back coz of the humidity outside, anyways..then when i got out from the cubicle room I saw someone (I didnt saw her face clearly coz im not focusing and just saw her from the corner of my eye- something like that) she was a little girl with an emo hair and staring at my friend cla with her mouth opened while holding the door knob,I didnt see her clothes though but I am sure she's not wearing a school uniform, anyways, I was really disturbed by her reaction then when i came to my friend i decided to look back but "she"was gone. So I asked my friend hysterically if she she saw the girl and she didn't! I all got goosebumps all over my body and I told my friend the story and we ran off like crazy...


and I cant stop thinking about it and started stating like "that was just my imagination, right? and my friend got annoyed of my reated questions and said it was all my imagination then i told myself...it should be!

anyhow, I told all my friends in the classroom about it and we all end up talking about horror stories which is really fun :)
then we laughed and joke,because our different reactions and we are all like "ömmg!! then??! then??"

then our teacher came and told us to be quiet , then we went on to our far away seats and check our quizzes in calculuswhich i got 3/10...*sigh*


then dismissed
and went home.internet.eat,reading something again,study a bit then this :)
that's all ...

*sigh*
ahh!! im going nuts! this is so so depressing, annoying, pain in the *** month!
and I still dont get the math thing...and calculus too w/c makes me want to eat vanilla with vanila chocolate and drink 10 boxes of milk!, but thats not the point..

anyhow, it's already 2:43 am. i just finished my project in physics which by the way i started it at the time 6:oo pm..im sooo exhausted, and i still have to do my elfili, tle, math, calculus and copy some notes!!!

anyone help! T_T

it's really amazing i still have time for this...
^__^ (once a week)..

i really wonder why all my classmates can easily undestand calculus but me,
i mean come on! i always listen, and taking notes and asking something--but..
*sigh* the next morning, i forgot what it was... i hate math!! >.<**

My day..

-we are all so happy because our class schedule is shortend due to the Ramadan event, something like that :P

anyways, I'm somewhat happy too :)..consider that I can now
spend more time in my fave thing in the whole world..hai hai!! ^___^

-tomorrow will be the bday of my friend, cla, which I am so excited about..
treat time again!! yeheh!..hehhe :>

anyways...

i have so many to tell.but ahmm...i gotta go.k see yah!




-anyhow: