I want to thank God for being with me throughout this painful period of self-inflicted torture.

I always believe God is fair and he gives us what we deserve.
And I know God is watching me all the time.
Always there to me, guides me and filled me with blessings and love.

He gave me parents, who cares for me even though I am a bad daughter at times & Im sorry.

Sometimes ...I envy people who are great in many ways,
morelikely, because I have nothing to show-- insecurity can't be avoided.
But, as days goes by,
I find ways to be more positive and to look forward for what I am capable of,
for my dreams and hopes.
And Im more grateful to have my friends and family here beside me.

And there are times, That I failed to thank God and apologize for the things that Im sorry for.
That in fact, when Im alone and indulging w/ self pity for some reasons,
I called on HIM, and somehow I was so relieved, calm and different afterwards.
It's like a stain remover... I felt so warm and relax.
Thank you for everything dear Lord God.
I owe you more than my life.

it's been quite a difficult journey thus far, and i know there's much more to go.

And eventhough, I over react about life and all that,
Im really very grateful to be born and live here,
in this place of wanders and in this chaotic mixed up world,
that somehow, I've been able to see that
there are places that are worth viewing,
there are people worth living for,
there are dreams worth fighting for,
and there are love worth living for.
and love ones who cared for us so much more than their own life.

There's something weird about words, pictures,

songs, inspiring eyes, daydreams, endless pursuit...

because they seem to have souls and lives inside them.

They make people think about their existence.
Why they are living, who they are living for.
Why do people want to watch shooting stars?

Why do people want to sit on rooftops?
Why do people want to walk barefooted along the beach?

all of that... for many reasons.

ahlabyou papa God :)

Amen.